i’m the same way! that’s so weird!
yeah it is super strange and i can’t really figure out why it is aaahhh
maybe like when u have to do stuff via obligations (school/work/$$$) u don’t really have as much time to draw/create for yrself so yr personal aesthetic kinda has to take a backseat? im not really sure???
but yeah since we both feel like dat, we should try doing something kinda out~of~the~box for ourselves soon & see how it goes?? experimentation yall